> hope that mai loves ones will be happi forever.

~~Sunday, October 10, 2010~~

12:24

I am happy to c u last night. but ur attitude had changed. i dunno wtf are u thinking. u told me that u feel that I've a litter feeling to alson i say no and u wan me to swear. so how about i ask u do u have feeling for the fucking bitch. i bear everything. because of u i didn't close with my friends. last time i close with guy u KBKP now i close with my girlfriends. u say if i still wan relationship to go on i need to break up with her. wtf even i met her we only just normal friends only. i dunno what the hell are u thinking. then a few more hours we are OK. wtf is this. i told myself if this go on again maybe i will just let it go and change a new job and go for a better job. no point keep quarreling. ahma say u had a good gf. but look at how u treated me. 4years plus had pass. next month is our 5 years. if u can't take it that i am close with my guy friends i had already no more close with them le if u still can't take it that i close with my girlfriends then forget it. i feel fucking speechless right now.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, October 06, 2010~~

09:29

What should i do now?? today is his hearing. i've missed him for the whole 3 weeks. i can't bear to c him suffer because of this stupid case that had happened. i blamed myself for nto contacting u for the past few years. this 7 months is a very happy memories for me, thanks for making such a wonderfull memories. even we had quarrelled becasue of misunderstanding and about things that u dun wish to hear. even i cried because of thi i dun wish you to do that . u always will help me to wipe my tears. u are alwyas be there for me whenever i am stressed. u are always the one who will make me smile. u are the one who will stayed overnight at my house. u are the one who wil ask for help when u need help. u are the one that i would care most and hope u wun get into trouble. u are the one that i will get beat by soemone when someoen wants to find u trouble. u are the one that i can sense that u is in the trouble. u are the one that u gib me a cal in the morning i would run over t our house and look for u. are the one that i would hug and cry on your shoulder. uare the one that i would buy a present and put our memories inside. u are the one that i gave u the present and u would keep it in ur luggage. u are the one that i will worried the most. promised me that u would take good care of yourself. dun worry about us. we will stay strong so must u. we wil wasit fro u no matter what happens. we wun look down on u . promsied u that iwill visit u and when u are released we will fetch u. we willa wlays be ther for u whenever u need help. remember to tell letter to us offen. love u miss u <3

save me from the nothing I’ve become..