> hope that mai loves ones will be happi forever.

~~Thursday, June 24, 2010~~

14:11

Happy 18th birthday to me. thanks friends and love ones for all the wishes. and exspecially to BB Babe and all my sisters who wished me. i am now waiting for him to wished me. but he had lost hs handphone. so i think he won't le ba. just hope that miracle will happen. on july 2nd 2010 he will be sentence already. now then he ahd a girlfriend i feel that we are not close as what we used to be already. maybe the reasons is girlfriend will be important. ya becasue i am just a gans not blood sister. btu hope that miracle will happen. di no matter what happens i wun leave u alone in the dark. not too worried ok?? will always be with u de

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Monday, June 21, 2010~~

09:27

Today is his court hearing again. this few days unable to meet him. btu hope that he will be fine. will 21062010 0905 be the last message that he sent me. i hope not. but i wan him to faster close his case. what should i do0 now. super worried for him. worried that he will kanna sentence. no matter what happen he will still be my brother for life. i've to be strong as what i told the rest of my loves ones. let's hope together

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, June 17, 2010~~

14:12

ytd shas called me and told me what hapen to her and gibson. At that point of time i dunno what to do. i just confort her. and i asked her more information on what had going on to their relationship. thay were loving when they were together. how can it end??? i dunno what to do. 1 is hurt and another one is angry. then i messaged to gibson di just 10 mins ago. i asked him what happen to their relationship and i went to look at amelia blog. mei isit the truth that u do things and u only tell him 2 weeks later. iw ant the truth now i dun wann hear any lie. i wan both of u to be friends instead of enemies. enemies doesn't help much. just like me and kenneth. i didin't talk to him for 2 years already then afetr i gradualated we talk to each other. its very difficult. i saaw him in school in BDS i want to talk to him but he just ignored me, its very pain. its like u really know him well but u just can't talk. i really want to know what exactly happen between the both of u. mei i believe gibson doesn't lied to u before. i can c that eh treats u very good. btoh of u have to c each other during CCAs for 2and a half years. so if can be friends be friends. dun regret. can't eb couple then be friends then. rather be enemies. i can swear that when i was with kenneth he treats me very good. even at times i was vdery angry with him btu he realix treats em very good he doesn't lied. i remembder ther si a time he said that he will picked me up from CCAs afettr he went tuu widl wild wet btu he didn't but is ok at least eh doesn't let me waited so long. frankly speaking couple must have trust and must give in to another party. dun alwasy quarrelled because of smalls mall stuff. iots not worth it trust me

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, June 02, 2010~~

18:11

Loves i want to tell this on 01 june 2010 2013 hours. i will remember what you told me de. i will never ever forget what you told me. een when u left the home you just dun wan to message me. even meet up already. i am so disapointed of what you had done. u just want to enjoy yourself. ytd i messaged danick. i was so sad and my heart breaks. i wanted to let u go. i had alreayd make up my mind yesterday. but i just dunnno why u always want do it agin. i just wnt u to know that i love u so much. u go 1 time only but u wil go another time. micheal intro u u must go mehx. he knows that u had a GF and still he intro u. what kind of friend is he. i fucking hate it alot. i can give u up easily. but i dun wan. what is the reasons. even u think that i am ok with u le but sorry i am stil hurt. the pain that u gave me is too hurt and deep that it will need time tuu recover. u can pretend that nothing had happen but sorry i can't how can i pretend that nothing had happen. 2 hours u went. i hate it so much. how i iwish i can just forget it but how???? i even want to drunk myself. what do u want to make me feel so hurt so much. i ahte the feeling do u know. i thinku dunno. u didn't told me before u make the appointment. after u make appointment le you tell me still got use ma. i can tell u ish useless le. i hope that u wun make it again.

to Didi. i hope that u will quit it. ya u just wan sei btu it will hurt u. i want u tos top touching it le. please di. the moment i ask u i already very hurt le. i feel so pain. my heart shattered as if is gonna to stop beating le. i really hope u will stop the habit le. u sae u wun addict to it. but if u always take u will addicted the. [please stop ok di. i believe u can do it de, di u are the one that i dote most. please di. u know that jeix loves u alot. i wan u to be happy .

save me from the nothing I’ve become..