> hope that mai loves ones will be happi forever.

~~Tuesday, April 13, 2010~~

10:40

just come back from court.trip back didin't talked to didi much as he was talking with 1 guy that i am gonna to hate him forever. was told by someone( can't be mentioned) that he was caught because sniffing adn so this fucking guy also done it with him. it was him who started the ball rolling la. then now he kanna. CB. u are a hypocrite. wad jason say is right u are 两头蛇. i am gonna to make u suffer. u wan paly with me come la. i dun gib a fucking dame if he is helping u anot. as long what i said is truth. do u ever ever think that if his mother knows abnout it how will she feels about it. i dn think u will ever ever think about it. becxause u only cxare fr urself u dun even care about my loves ones. u know that he is my loves ones and yet u wan c me crying because of him. i am fucking dissapointed with u not my didi. u how old already can't control him ma. u can't control ur taiji la. NBCB. u are at the public not ur hus lehx. if u wan play big limbu pplay with u. i c who will help u.make me spoil my mood today. u are a trouble maker. i want him to chnage not let him addicted mroe and more. do u fucking understand what i am trying to do.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

00:25

sorry for not blogging this few days alot of things had happen this few dyas. forstly is my brother. we didin't managed to talk for like 4 days uh. then i just recieved his sister sms saying that there is a court tmr. is like WTH. i keep feeling that somehting is gonna to happen to him and yet ther is really things happen tuu him. is like WT.....i keep worrying for him. scare him that he will do wrong things. is like wtf. i not sure whether should i be angry or sad about it. tmr have to go court. i really dun like going to court the feelings. the feeling is like so fuck up la.i wonder does he realise how worry am i going to be. can't contact him for like so many dsays and yet i am so worrying for him. i really dunno what to do now le la. my heart shuttered like as if i am gonna to leave this world. super wrry for tmr;s court. will it be a good outcome or a bad outcome i not sure about it. how am i ssuppose to do now. cxna anyone tell me.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, April 08, 2010~~

09:03

After so long of knowing them. we finally can go out haha. met up wib mei at bus stop and took a bus to ehub. haha. when alighting saw gibson didi omg is been ages that i last sees him haha. talked to him for a while. missed him so much haha. is just saying. but i miss when we were slacking. the way his hair right now look exactly like scott. hAHA. he is doing fine now. haha. we went to ehub to have sushi. haha we managed to finish 40 plates. haha best uh. haha. then we went tu arcade and play games. and off to white sands to buy mai things. and baby berm and some polo tees for eunice jie. thanks mei for accompnay. after buy things off to my house. i talked to my dad about didi. and he finally agreed on it. and same goes for my mum. as long as he is at home i wun worried so much. i am fine with him staying over at my house. then off to home to get key to help jason to close the shop. wow is such a rush. haha. went over to close already. off to sasa to lok fro make up stuff. haha. didi felt so paiseh staying at my hoouse but i say dun worry. and i say that i will accompany him tmr. then night he smsed me sayign his mother wants him to stay another day so tmr then he will move him. i said ok. but today his mom keep nagging at him asking him to move to novena wib her at least for 1 month. but no choice he have to moved.feel so sad. i am unable to c him for i think for 1 month.but dun worried we will sms with each other.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Sunday, April 04, 2010~~

09:48

The day i cried for him again. ytd when penguine ask me wad if he sniffed again. wad will i do. he makes me so suspicsion already. so when i was about to go smoke i saw him so i ask him did u sniffed glue. he say yes he did. heart shattered like is going to stop breathing already. i was so sad.i cried on the spot. but i was so super worrying for him. i thought he had changed already but end up he changed but for the glue sniffing he didn't changed. i ask him to promised me that he won't sniff glue already. he say ok. i care for him so much, worrying for him, that's why i will cry in front of him. then he found out that i cried so he help me to wipe my tears. i really really care so much for him. i treat him as my blood brother. let's hope he will change to a better person.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Friday, April 02, 2010~~

23:10

Hi readers i have a good news to tell. i and mai didi ok already.

thanks sista eunice and geok peng for accompany me. 3days of tears is really worth it. as promised to cheryl meix. i wun pamper him anymore .

i will get him a job. so that i won't think so much. thanks again. i love u ppl. working with jason is fun. i love u didi<3

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

09:20

i am so sorry didi. i shouldn't say that. sorry., its jie fault. but jie do the things is all because of u. jie wants u to work. we will support ur expenses till u get a job and also ur 1st pay. but as promised to mai darlings li tian and cheryl i will support u to the last time. fro the money u owe me wait till u get ur pay and u think u had enpugh den return jie ba. i am so sorry. jie now don't know how to face u le. jiex felt so guilty. make u so angry. i really still want u to be mai didi. u are always my best didi. u know me for so long le u should know what type of person i am already. u should know that i would only help those who i really care for.i don't have to care about myself. i always want u tuu eat because i scare u will gone hungry. i have my dad to bring food for me. please didi forgive jie can. i will always be ther whenever u need help de dun worry. jiex really really treasure our brother AND sista relationship.will u forgive jiex. jiex beg u to forgive jie. jie is so much worrying for u. treAT u like as if u is mai blood brother. i would never ever treat mai other brother so good untill the day u were my brother. u changed my life. jie say sorry again. hope u really really will forgive me

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, April 01, 2010~~

09:07

I not sure how should i begin mai blogging. nvm let's begin saying what happen ytd. ytd morning i met up wib penguine and alson mom to pick him up. but before that we went to buy clothes for didi. so happy that he is release. we took a cab down to CPC. then he was release happy happy!!!!! the first thing he come out he ask for cig. then we went to tam,pines mall and have our breakfast. thanks auntie. off to work. and he went to played arcade. about night i msg him and told him that i need to talk to him and i say sorry. i really scare to face him and talk. i might just can't control my emotion. even ytd when i am talking to my dearest i also cxan't control and now i am talking to mai cousin i also can't take it. i cry it out alot. ytd he say he wnts to go to his friends house. and i told him u were told to go home and bath and help ur mother but u didn't. then he replied stop all this le la. don't keep talkign about my mum already. u are nagging like my mum. is like WTF la. after i recieved his msg i immediately cried. he had change to another person. so i msg him fine i don't care about u anymore!!!! after a while he replied hope u don't angry uh. you also know my patternd e. don't angry ok? also nto the first time know me. you know i don like people to nag or talk about my mum or wat de ma. wat u wan to tell me cal me and talk can i wanna know. i replied i still prefer face to face. his mother, sister and me is super worrying for him. we hope he does not contact wib a friends of his. bacause he keep spending his money. and we only cna support his daily expenses. and wad we should do is get him a job and work so he won't contact wib them already. i hope god will see upon him. thanks eunice sister <3>

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