> hope that mai loves ones will be happi forever.

~~Tuesday, January 26, 2010~~

09:58

Ytd recieved a call from boss saying that dis few days sales quite bad so ask me off .
so meaning i onlis work 3 days a week.
the feeeling was so empty. i dunnno how tuu discribe it.
ytd wanna tuu tangs tuu buy 2 dress 1 for graduation ceremony another one ish for CNY.
spend $200+ on it but it was a gift from mai aunt and cousin. thanks. love u
went tuu tangs at 10 tuu mit mai aunt shop till 11.15 den go off le.
i begining tuu think that if i can't go higher nitec den i have tuu go private skul tuu further mai studies. but wad should i learn. i begining tuu learn beauty which ish helping ppl tuu wash face and den if i mastered or know already den i will learn how help pl tuu make up den i can be a make up artist. but i wun be mosque which ish help ppl massage. i wun wanna it.
haha.
hope tuu go higher nitec. cux privcate skul fees very expensive. even might be my uncle sponser me to go but very ex sia. let's c whether i can go higher nitec anot den decide bahx.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, January 21, 2010~~

23:10

Today i went Ehub wib baby. sorry baby i woke up like so late den we end up didn't went tuu crossfire tuu play L4D2. sorry baby. had a quarrelled wit baby in the morning btu we are fine hope. i do hope it will be fine.
i dun wanna tuu quarrell wib euu each time. i wanna us tuu be happy jush like before. i nemo i sometimes may have temper. i have mood swings ppl do have mood swing. i wanna u tuu be ahppy. i hav alot alot of unhappy thing but i dun wanna tuu sae out of my heart i always wnana tuu get drunk myself and jsuh cry out loud and hope everything will be gone after a cry. but will it works. i dunno. can anybody tell miiex wad had happened tuu miiex. graduation ceremony ish gonna tuu be right upon me. i wanna go higher nitec

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, January 20, 2010~~

23:31

Today come alot of stocks. haix so doing packing almost the whole day. ate my lunch at 7plus
super late sia. then i saw someone at tampines 1 but the someone choose nto to talk to me fine!!!! den we shall not talk. izzit so hard tuu sae a hello out of your mouth. KNN. i dun gib a fking damn on it. even i lose euu as a closes ones or wad.
am i super over concern tu my loves ones?? i've asked this simple questions tuu msot of my loves ones. they sae no. the main thing i wanna tuu pass a message tuu euu is i dun wanna euu tuu be like me. i regreted already i dun wish euu tuu be regreted too.i dun think euu know wad i mean. if i am too over concern den jush sae den i wun bother abnout euu anymore in future. btu if let me noe he did that i will c mai mood. i can dun nid ppl tuu help me they can help him i dun gib a fking damn on it. i oso not onlix have them as my friends i still have more friends.
i dun wish tu continue my post.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Tuesday, January 19, 2010~~

11:30

Time pass so fast that i am gonna to be 18 soon. ytd while working cheryl come tuu look for me. i was so worried by 1 of my love ones. am i too over concern over her??? or i am jsuh wanna to over react at some stuff. i jush dun wanan her tuu follow what i did in the past. am i wrong for doing that. wanted tu jsuh cry it out and pretened that nmothing had happen before but i can't then when i am jsuh outside mai shopi saw mervyn mai ex. i wanted tuu call his name but i am scxare tuu recognise the worng ppl.
so i msged him and it was him. happy that he ish looking for jobs nw. accompanied me till abnout 7 den he left. thanks. i do hope we can be close friends fro now and forever.
wad am i suppose tuu do now. jush pretend nothing ish happening or wad??

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, January 13, 2010~~

09:28

Its been a long time ever since i last blog. times flies.
on monday i send off BB's sister and sis in law and the baby tuu china. is a sAD thing but i will overcome it. miss everything that ish within them. miss every morning wen the baby come in and disturb miiex wen i am playing computer. miss the food that sis in law cooked. miss sister visit me during mai work. miss those times wen we were playing and send hweeting and junyong home. i miss them alot. btu have tuu wait till march 17 den they will be back. i realix miss them alot alot alot.
hope sis in law's brother computer will be repaired and we can tok in msn. china weather is 4degrees nw. ish lk super cold. hope they can take it. super worry for sister and baby.

ytd wen i am was working i suddenly felt so empty. i missed them. hope they will come bk soon. sudenly tears will roll down mai cheek. JOYCE jiayou euu can do it.
time will flies fast. wen i was working i saw sky tan jun jie. i miss those time wib them palying basketball. he ish mai best kor ever and the 1st kor. if he noe i am smoking and drinking he would have told me off unlike my other kor will ask me to quit. he is still the same nvber changed but i think he is married. congradulations kor. you yuan wu fen. i wanted tuu talk to euu btu euu was far away form me. hope u can recognise me. i wanan tuu c euu again. let keep in contact if we have each other number. hope ur wife wun jealous ba. i miss the times we were tgt playing at blk 111. euu always be there for us taking care of us tellign us wad's right and wad's wrong. if time can stop i hope it stop at the time we were playing basketball. i realix hope so. no matter wad i hope euu are happy wib ur life nw. i pass my phone tuu singtel shop to charge but they close wen i am goin tuu collect it. dam it. nvm today i can have my phone bk. once bitter twice shy. when i was walking out t1 someone caled me from my bk. it was haja student councilor we chat a while then we go off le.

today i made a call tuu sister. she was doing fine was very cold. i hope baby can take it. 2 month 5 days tuu go. ltr i will be working. on feb 3rd ish mai graduation ceremony hope it will be happy day. i miss student council. i wanna go higher nitec acocunting.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..