> hope that mai loves ones will be happi forever.

~~Wednesday, June 02, 2010~~

18:11

Loves i want to tell this on 01 june 2010 2013 hours. i will remember what you told me de. i will never ever forget what you told me. een when u left the home you just dun wan to message me. even meet up already. i am so disapointed of what you had done. u just want to enjoy yourself. ytd i messaged danick. i was so sad and my heart breaks. i wanted to let u go. i had alreayd make up my mind yesterday. but i just dunnno why u always want do it agin. i just wnt u to know that i love u so much. u go 1 time only but u wil go another time. micheal intro u u must go mehx. he knows that u had a GF and still he intro u. what kind of friend is he. i fucking hate it alot. i can give u up easily. but i dun wan. what is the reasons. even u think that i am ok with u le but sorry i am stil hurt. the pain that u gave me is too hurt and deep that it will need time tuu recover. u can pretend that nothing had happen but sorry i can't how can i pretend that nothing had happen. 2 hours u went. i hate it so much. how i iwish i can just forget it but how???? i even want to drunk myself. what do u want to make me feel so hurt so much. i ahte the feeling do u know. i thinku dunno. u didn't told me before u make the appointment. after u make appointment le you tell me still got use ma. i can tell u ish useless le. i hope that u wun make it again.

to Didi. i hope that u will quit it. ya u just wan sei btu it will hurt u. i want u tos top touching it le. please di. the moment i ask u i already very hurt le. i feel so pain. my heart shattered as if is gonna to stop beating le. i really hope u will stop the habit le. u sae u wun addict to it. but if u always take u will addicted the. [please stop ok di. i believe u can do it de, di u are the one that i dote most. please di. u know that jeix loves u alot. i wan u to be happy .

save me from the nothing I’ve become..