> hope that mai loves ones will be happi forever.

~~Friday, February 05, 2010~~

10:28

hello ppl i am sorry that i didn't post dis few days.

haha i went for graduation ceremony on 3rd of feb. i mit up wib dad at my hus downstair den we went to took a cab to skul. had breakfast at cafe 1 sae gazalli and few of the councilliors. hope they are doing fine. dad ate fish ball noodles and i ate fried wan ton and a hot milk. i miss skul food. especially the janpanese food. it was so delicious.after eating went to a place called forcum and sit down and for waiting for shirley to come. den i saw mai 1st boyfriends furqaan. haha we always c each other at the same place but onmlix different angle. den about 8.40 shirley came so she saae still have to wait for her 2 of her classmates. her clasmates had reached.so we went up den went to register and off to the palce we should sit. it suppose to sit by clas but i dun wanna ahya jush anyhow sit also can mahx as long as sit within the course can le. den eventually pearline was siting beside too haha. so cool. den we sang the ite song den off for our cert giving. haha den it ends den off we went to take our photos haha i look so weird. haha so tan. haha. den went to have refreshment. den shirley went home. i speck to some of the
councillors. haha it brings back memories. haha. took a photo wib haja waiting for the photos. haha.den went to buy fruits at cafe 1 den saw pearline at cafe 1 wib huixian so had a talk wib them,. den went bk to forcum again to sit down den i sae him again haha. saw him like so many times within jush like a few hours. den i eat finish my fruits i saw him again. haha. den off to home dne i saw him outside skul smoking haha. i thought he wun recogfnise me but eventually he could recognise me. haha. den went to tampines to mit up wib ting den go shopping for a while and had lunch as long john haha. quite nice la. haha den i mit up wib cheryl my best meix she 1st time c me wearing a dress wib heels haha. i noe is weird haha.my leg was hurting cause by the heels so went home to change. changing was doen so went bk to shopping for shoes. can't find the shoes that i want so how??? met up wib mum at 505 den went there to look for shoes but still cxan't find. den about 5.45pm cheryl got to go home already thansk meix for accompanied me. love ya.

den went to look for shoes but still can't find. 6.10pm already is time to mit up wib BABY haha. mum [passed me $20 to buy my shoe haha.

dne off to hoome and cook and play computers.

Ytd went to fetch brother to c a doctor. had took out number and wen to eat but went we went bk we had miss the number by 4 haha but is ok. went to wait for the doctor so long. haha den took medicine and off to home. i buy oyster for BABY den went i was opening letter box he appear in front of me OMG he appear sia. means he took halfday off. haha suppose to mit cheryl den sicne he doesn't want me to go out den i stay at hgome sorry mei i didn't mit up wib u sorry:(. den as usual wen to cook adn play compouter games.

Morning ppl i am awake. ltr gonne to work at 1pm haha. i dreamed about a guy who is my 1st brother. the story started on my mind. its was so sudden i meet up wib him at 1 place. den we went ot ton. i think i was badly treated. bt he was good to me i was fall in love wib him adn i think he is too. den in order he doesn't want me to go out he kept all mt ATM cards and also my handphone but i told him i nid to make a call to mai parents i think we went for a camp. den i was so stick to him. it was liek so romatic. den he sae let's go here verix sians. so i went to the front he oso. den he was smoking he pas me a stick haha. he let's me to smoke. he use to nto to let my smoke.and that is my dream. last time he treated we as his sister own blood sister. haha i begin to c him at t1. haha. i hope to tok tuu him again if got fate. iw ant to see him. we have been brother and sister for like 8 years already OMG so long already. i once playing basketball wib him. haha so fun. i wish we can play basketball again. if times can turn bk i hope it turn bk to primary skul jush onlix had the times wib him,joycelyn and jasmine and not to forget benny ahcai and lots more. but i dun wish mai ex and 2 used to be mai sister to appear. i miss hym

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Tuesday, January 26, 2010~~

09:58

Ytd recieved a call from boss saying that dis few days sales quite bad so ask me off .
so meaning i onlis work 3 days a week.
the feeeling was so empty. i dunnno how tuu discribe it.
ytd wanna tuu tangs tuu buy 2 dress 1 for graduation ceremony another one ish for CNY.
spend $200+ on it but it was a gift from mai aunt and cousin. thanks. love u
went tuu tangs at 10 tuu mit mai aunt shop till 11.15 den go off le.
i begining tuu think that if i can't go higher nitec den i have tuu go private skul tuu further mai studies. but wad should i learn. i begining tuu learn beauty which ish helping ppl tuu wash face and den if i mastered or know already den i will learn how help pl tuu make up den i can be a make up artist. but i wun be mosque which ish help ppl massage. i wun wanna it.
haha.
hope tuu go higher nitec. cux privcate skul fees very expensive. even might be my uncle sponser me to go but very ex sia. let's c whether i can go higher nitec anot den decide bahx.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, January 21, 2010~~

23:10

Today i went Ehub wib baby. sorry baby i woke up like so late den we end up didn't went tuu crossfire tuu play L4D2. sorry baby. had a quarrelled wit baby in the morning btu we are fine hope. i do hope it will be fine.
i dun wanna tuu quarrell wib euu each time. i wanna us tuu be happy jush like before. i nemo i sometimes may have temper. i have mood swings ppl do have mood swing. i wanna u tuu be ahppy. i hav alot alot of unhappy thing but i dun wanna tuu sae out of my heart i always wnana tuu get drunk myself and jsuh cry out loud and hope everything will be gone after a cry. but will it works. i dunno. can anybody tell miiex wad had happened tuu miiex. graduation ceremony ish gonna tuu be right upon me. i wanna go higher nitec

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, January 20, 2010~~

23:31

Today come alot of stocks. haix so doing packing almost the whole day. ate my lunch at 7plus
super late sia. then i saw someone at tampines 1 but the someone choose nto to talk to me fine!!!! den we shall not talk. izzit so hard tuu sae a hello out of your mouth. KNN. i dun gib a fking damn on it. even i lose euu as a closes ones or wad.
am i super over concern tu my loves ones?? i've asked this simple questions tuu msot of my loves ones. they sae no. the main thing i wanna tuu pass a message tuu euu is i dun wanna euu tuu be like me. i regreted already i dun wish euu tuu be regreted too.i dun think euu know wad i mean. if i am too over concern den jush sae den i wun bother abnout euu anymore in future. btu if let me noe he did that i will c mai mood. i can dun nid ppl tuu help me they can help him i dun gib a fking damn on it. i oso not onlix have them as my friends i still have more friends.
i dun wish tu continue my post.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Tuesday, January 19, 2010~~

11:30

Time pass so fast that i am gonna to be 18 soon. ytd while working cheryl come tuu look for me. i was so worried by 1 of my love ones. am i too over concern over her??? or i am jsuh wanna to over react at some stuff. i jush dun wanan her tuu follow what i did in the past. am i wrong for doing that. wanted tu jsuh cry it out and pretened that nmothing had happen before but i can't then when i am jsuh outside mai shopi saw mervyn mai ex. i wanted tuu call his name but i am scxare tuu recognise the worng ppl.
so i msged him and it was him. happy that he ish looking for jobs nw. accompanied me till abnout 7 den he left. thanks. i do hope we can be close friends fro now and forever.
wad am i suppose tuu do now. jush pretend nothing ish happening or wad??

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, January 13, 2010~~

09:28

Its been a long time ever since i last blog. times flies.
on monday i send off BB's sister and sis in law and the baby tuu china. is a sAD thing but i will overcome it. miss everything that ish within them. miss every morning wen the baby come in and disturb miiex wen i am playing computer. miss the food that sis in law cooked. miss sister visit me during mai work. miss those times wen we were playing and send hweeting and junyong home. i miss them alot. btu have tuu wait till march 17 den they will be back. i realix miss them alot alot alot.
hope sis in law's brother computer will be repaired and we can tok in msn. china weather is 4degrees nw. ish lk super cold. hope they can take it. super worry for sister and baby.

ytd wen i am was working i suddenly felt so empty. i missed them. hope they will come bk soon. sudenly tears will roll down mai cheek. JOYCE jiayou euu can do it.
time will flies fast. wen i was working i saw sky tan jun jie. i miss those time wib them palying basketball. he ish mai best kor ever and the 1st kor. if he noe i am smoking and drinking he would have told me off unlike my other kor will ask me to quit. he is still the same nvber changed but i think he is married. congradulations kor. you yuan wu fen. i wanted tuu talk to euu btu euu was far away form me. hope u can recognise me. i wanan tuu c euu again. let keep in contact if we have each other number. hope ur wife wun jealous ba. i miss the times we were tgt playing at blk 111. euu always be there for us taking care of us tellign us wad's right and wad's wrong. if time can stop i hope it stop at the time we were playing basketball. i realix hope so. no matter wad i hope euu are happy wib ur life nw. i pass my phone tuu singtel shop to charge but they close wen i am goin tuu collect it. dam it. nvm today i can have my phone bk. once bitter twice shy. when i was walking out t1 someone caled me from my bk. it was haja student councilor we chat a while then we go off le.

today i made a call tuu sister. she was doing fine was very cold. i hope baby can take it. 2 month 5 days tuu go. ltr i will be working. on feb 3rd ish mai graduation ceremony hope it will be happy day. i miss student council. i wanna go higher nitec acocunting.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, December 02, 2009~~

18:47

i am selling bears now. price are from $40.00 onwards.
please tagged miiex if euu wanna. i do ahve some other types of bears.

save me from the nothing I’ve become..